You Were Never Meant to be Perfect.

It feels vulnerable for me say this because there are people I deeply love and cherish within these communities. I’ve posted this on my story on instagram, then deleted it, then posted it again, and deleted it. But when I tuned into my heart to have a last go at it, I realized I wanted to make a proper post because the underlying message feels really important - for the me, the people in these communities, and my clients.

The conscious communities have SO much to offer, and you’ll learn a ton by being a part of them. After moving away from Colorado, I realized that I lived a pretty extreme lifestyle for a really long time, based solely on conscious living (which I’m super grateful for because it made me a bomb astrologer and coach. Still finding my place within all of this, and I’m not sure how my lifestyle will change after experiencing what I did). I healed, learned, grew, loved, failed, and healed again and again and again… until I became a guide myself. I wouldn’t take back this experience for anything, but…

This is all a process. Transcending pain, wounds, and shadow is a journey rather than a destination, and it never ends. Because of this, you will NEVER be ‘perfect’. Odds are, you won’t reach a state of utter transcendence in this lifetime, and to be honest, trying to be a perfect transcended being defeats the purpose of spirituality. In my opinion, spirituality is a practice that shows us how to love ourselves, and we learn how to do this only BECAUSE we mess up and have the opportunity to choose love.

One of the reasons I chose to focus on shadow work as a spiritual practice along with my astrology, is I witnessed so many people within the conscious community try to be perfect and transcended, but this only led to more shadow and pain. I fell into this too, and it didn’t feel right. I wanted to learn how to love this side of us - the human side that messes up, that isn’t perfect, that isn’t God.

I saw people falling into the belief that ultra spiritual individuals have transcended out of the normal human struggles, but this isn’t true… and the pressure to be perfect or ‘highly evolved’ only leads to more masks, suppression, inauthenticity, fear, etc. Another indicator that… you’re human. Imperfect, but perfectly loveable in your mess.

The reason why I focus on shadow work is because this practice teaches you to love your human self. Doing the inner work makes many of the human struggles 10x easier. You’ll heal and grow beyond measure… annnnd, you’ll never be ‘better than’ these normal human struggles… because you were never meant to be God. 

You’re meant to be human, feeling God within you, aligning with it to the best of your capacity (if that feels true to you and your path), and learning how to love yourself unconditionally when you fall short. The practice won’t be perfect - you’ll slip up, fail, forget, revert back, and so on. But you’re still loveable in all of this, like toddler learning to walk, we learn to love.

When we view our spiritual evolution through the lens of trying to be perfect, or accepted amongst the community for how much work we’ve done, or good enough because we’ve gone to a million retreats, this is coming from a wound masking itself as a spiritual path…the same wound that you’ll find again and again amongst communities that aren’t spiritual at all. No matter whether you’re on a spiritual path or not, you’re human and we experience pain. I believe that a major part of spirituality is learning to love the shadow, not suppressing it because it falls short. Falling short is part of the human experience, and it is your gateway to learning how to love yourself unconditionally.